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If you are angry then its due to lie. If you are angry then its on unreal. If you are stuck then its due to lie. In comparison you get stuck. In competition you get stuck.  In wanting more you are stuck. When you are stuck and not able to unstuck then you are angry.  If you are angry then its due to a lie.  If you are angry at something or someone then its unreal.  Your stomach pit is wrenching tight, you get mad at yourself “all these years of sadhana and spiritual practices seems to have failed.”. Then your tightness is a lie, your sadhana is a lie, your spiritual practice is a lie. Why waste rest of your life trying to fight a lie? What will you get if you win over a lie? What is the point of spending so much energy against a lie?  What will you prove in the end? That it was a lie. All along you have known its a lie and still you are spending time proving its a lie.  This world is full of lies. What is the po...

The last question of the session was Who decides when I get enlightened? < Nakul's Answer came spontaneously as > You. Its YOU.  Ok, its time to wrap up. Next session is on sunday 31st July at 9PM. Jai Gurudev. Baffled. Confused. Broken. I was lost. All my definitions were flying in the sky, scattered clouds. Mind was unsettled. How can it be? How can I decide when I want to be enlighten? Is it so straightforward? Is it so easy? What about karmas? What about grace? Mind was flooded with queries. . . . The best type of answers don't have questions. The deepest questions have no answers. . . Who is this YOU that Nakul was referring to? Was it me in my current disposition? Will it be me in some future evolved disposition? Where will I be and what will I be in order to be THE YOU that Nakul was referring to? . . story time . . Gadhi was a pious brahmana who once lived in Kosala. He went to the forest and meditated for 8 months. When...

The subtle combo of mind+intellect+memory+ego runs in self-feeding cycle. Ego brings forth the I-ness. Ego nudges the memory to bring into focus an incident/situation in which it triumphs or suffers. Memory nudges the intellect to argue on the situation. Intellect creates the argument and prepares the mind to have the argument. The mind comes into existence with the thoughts germinated in the intellect. The thoughts hail or destruct the ego. And the journey of life begins. You are born. Why are you born? A little story. Once Vishnu was in BrahmaLok and everyone came forth to welcome him except Sanath Kumar. When you get "don't care" in dispassion then its arrogance. Vishnu sensed this and cursed SanathKumar to spent one lifetime on Earth as punishment, as a journey to dissipate this arrogance/egoness. At that moment SanathKumar also cursed Vishnu to spent a lifetime on Earth while he was there and so Shree Ram was born. So tell me why were you born? hmm.. Even...

It was a chance meeting with Dr. Divya (fondly called as chechi).  She stays in art of living ashram @ bangalore but was on a friendly visit to Ragini's house post our volunteer's meet. Bala insisted to take a quick shower and come into volunteers meet post Guru Puja. What unfolded was unexpected, pleasant and shocking? A path resetting exercise if you wish.  We had rare opportunity to hear Chechi/Ragini/Pawan in unison in Guru Puja followed by heart rendering bhajan from Ragini. Dr Divya ji spoke at length and here are some drops of knowledge for you too. Its not verbatim and some interpolation and extrapolations are there too. -- The reason we are born again and again is because we have this belief/thought or संकल्प  that " its not ok ". Whatever is not ok happens in next lifetime. It could be stuff like how can they get divorce? how can he be killed in car accident? how come material things don't attract me? how come I am not a successful busi...