Moments so Far ...

the time to wake up was 5:30 AM todaythe time time to catch office bus was 7:00 AM todayI reached RBI layout wondering I was late and infact gave up hope when I reached bus stop around 7 then I started the painful wait for 215x becasue just yesterday I waited for her for 40 minutes and hung on to dear life on single feet with one hand holding tiffin and other the BMTC rod of support with shoes and jeans getting colored in muddy red I somehow reached 15th cross and searched for people with infy tag but surprising enough a bus dwindled in and was trying a U when I attempted to get in the driver queried "where to" infy and I said yes I thought there would only be few species getting in but the bus was full of being within a few stops with people settling in with their morning nap,radio stationor eyes dug into reading material only a few talked and there were fewer laughters.

Beauty is around. Fall has colored the landscape with fallen leaves and cones. Beatiful orange and all shades of dry green the sun comes early and goes back just after noon. Walking past woods I realize that it is not easy without you. Nature in full glory simply flows past you. I long and I long for moments that despite the pollution and shame can be spent just with you. Am I alone in san diego? waiting for the ordeal to end. Or I have chosen to be sad and give happiness a break.

Sitting pretty in an office 8*8*7 in a corner over a small make shift table with reheated food cooked yesterday, thick dal and dry rice and a banana, only walls to face and tubelight so bright I munch morsel by morsel wondering how will it be if it was to be for lifetime is this living , surviving or punishment? and thanking god for giving me family for them I look forward to, having lunch and being merry.

Day -1 Saturday 30th of July 2005 Air India flight slipped on the runway. We were in continuous touch with our parents in kalyan. The more we talked the more skeptical we grew about our visit to our parents place for the week. This would be the second reschedule we would be doing as the Air deccan flight to Mumbai got delayed. Finally we cancelled our plans based on recommendations from family. I had already cancelled my vacation once and did not want to do that again. Also I was not sure about what should be done with a week at hand. There were wondering thoughts to do Delhi-Madhura-Agra and Jhansi or Jhansi-Gwalior-Allahabad-Varanasi or khajuraho or kanyakumari. Day 0 Sunday 31st of July 2005 The confusion is carried forward to this day too. The eyes keep looking at watch as I am thinking hard for probable destination. Finally at 1:30 I decide to try kanyakumari or Swarna jyanti express. My turn at reservation counter came just before the counter was about to be closed. Kanyakumari w...

Day 1 Saturday 13th of August 2005 We waited until after noon contemplating to go for sita devi or pondicherry. After having lunch at “dal roti” we decided to view “Mangal Pandey” at Innovative Mutiplex. And the evening was spent having dinner at Nagarjuna. Meanwhile we got a call from Bhaskar saying his cousin reached in evening from Mumbai and they would go ahead and do the booking. We played along and said yes sportingly. Pondicherry was to wait for some more time in future. Day 2 Sunday 14th of August 2005 Early Morning: I got up at 3:45 AM in morning and wondering how would I manage the dogs of JP Nagar when they give me early morning scare. As time flew, I got my focus shifted from dogs to loo to day ahead. Carrying the load to yesterday’s digested food byproduct I started the Passion and picked up Harshad enroute to Bhaskar’s residence which is in Mathikere. Off we went at about 5:30 AM with tankfull of diesel and Tata Indigo on NH4 until Tumkur where we switched over to...

The Essentials Of Cash Flow

How to reach and accomplish the goal of making good money? You become a actor. You become a writer. You become a business man. You become a sports person. You start relishing your current job. You become what you are not. So you see the general process is to alienate yourself from your real self and indulge and pursue something which would help you accomplish your goal. In brief, drifting away from origins, running away from self, escaping from reality, afraid of facing your true self. How will I know what I am for?