Moments so Far ...

Beauty is around. Fall has colored the landscape with fallen leaves and cones. Beatiful orange and all shades of dry green the sun comes early and goes back just after noon. Walking past woods I realize that it is not easy without you. Nature in full glory simply flows past you. I long and I long for moments that despite the pollution and shame can be spent just with you. Am I alone in san diego? waiting for the ordeal to end. Or I have chosen to be sad and give happiness a break.

Sitting pretty in an office 8*8*7 in a corner over a small make shift table with reheated food cooked yesterday, thick dal and dry rice and a banana, only walls to face and tubelight so bright I munch morsel by morsel wondering how will it be if it was to be for lifetime is this living , surviving or punishment? and thanking god for giving me family for them I look forward to, having lunch and being merry.