Sunday, November 15, 2015

Guilty yet again - reAwakening with Dr Divya ji

It was a chance meeting with Dr. Divya (fondly called as chechi).  She stays in art of living ashram @ bangalore but was on a friendly visit to Ragini's house post our volunteer's meet.

Bala insisted to take a quick shower and come into volunteers meet post Guru Puja.

What unfolded was unexpected, pleasant and shocking? A path resetting exercise if you wish.  We had rare opportunity to hear Chechi/Ragini/Pawan in unison in Guru Puja followed by heart rendering bhajan from Ragini.

Dr Divya ji spoke at length and here are some drops of knowledge for you too. Its not verbatim and some interpolation and extrapolations are there too.

The reason we are born again and again is because we have this belief/thought or संकल्प  that "its not ok". Whatever is not ok happens in next lifetime. It could be stuff like

  1. how can they get divorce?
  2. how can he be killed in car accident?
  3. how come material things don't attract me?
  4. how come I am not a successful businessman?
  5. how come i don't have work life balance?
  6. how come I am not perfect in relationships, in business, in work, in society etc.,
And as outsider we see it happening and wonder on the imperfections and get stuck and keep them in some corner of our mind jut to be reborn with the same intention. 

So to break this recycling of human birth we need to believe in the "infinite organisation of this supreme intelligence" that "its ok". Trust that. Faith that. Believe that even if you are in mess till the end , its ok. You are taken care. Undoubtedly. 

The impersonal intelligence jut tunes to the frequency. Unless intervened by a personal Guru you are dragged into the mess, which could be a guilty trap. 

Like "I am not being able to do as much for the family as my better half." The guilt will rip you and grow indefinitely unless rain drops of knowledge dawns despite cyclone in Bay of Bengal.  Thank you Dr Divya. 

It will grow because nature only grows where you put your attention to. 
So its in your best interest to avoid the guilty trap or blame game or any other negative incline you chose to slide. Else your fall is certain. 

You are privileged to do seva. Initially it could be to stoke your ego. People are benefitting because you are reaching out to them. But as you do advance programme or part 2 the ego melts, slowly allowing doership to sink into oblivion and letting the real you surface/manifest.

Your family will benefit in the short and long term by your participation in seva. Your time away from family is in reality for their progress/growth. It does not in any way mean to shirk family responsibility. It only means find the balance, the middle path in which they don't feel the distance nor you are stuck with guilty consciousness.  

The knowledge, the practices, the master is all perfect, is all the best. When you have the best then why do you hesitate to share the love that you got so easily. Why are you ashamed and not proud of your association with all of the above?

People may disagree. But you are not here to arrange the clouds. You are here to share. If they catch the rhythm then dance else move on. Do not waste time in convincing people around on the returns on investment for being on the path. If they catch the frequency they will resonate else it will be noise. No point contributing to the noise, there is enough already in the society. 

The art of living happiness program is gateway to part 2/advance course. There you go deeper into meditation and increase your probability of leading a more meaningful life. The range of experiences in advance courses are as myriad as the the number of participants. Some experiences in advance were responsible for the setting of my path too.

Seva is art of allowing surrender to happen.
In kaliyuga only sanghachadwam can see you through. So build the group energy and then get onto the seva bandwagon. Its for your evolution that you are on the path. Its not for some little desire that you have come on the path, something like "become best teacher in world" or "become richest man on earth". They too will be fulfilled but you would have lost the time you had with a living master. A living master is your contemporary and you have to reap its benefits. Don't lose this once in many a lifetimes opportunity. 

Build the group energy, then the center will grow. Then take on the city/the state/the country/the universe...

Be free. Yes, In this lifetime only. 
Put effort.
Move On.
Its OK.

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Breaking the habits of mind - becoming free of sins

Mind loves games and deception. It gets trained to like sadness and becomes master in duping you to believe that sadistic is its nature. As you attempt to deviate from the set pattern it hits back with more vengeance.

मन दुःख की आदत डाल लेता है।  आपको ऐसा लगने लगता है की यही आपका स्वाभाव है।  और जब आप इससे दूर होने की कोशिश करते हो तो मन अपने बल से इसे दबोच लेता है।

जब आप छोटे थे तो अपने स्वभाव मैं थे।  खुश थे।  खुशद थे।  लेकिन फिर बीमार पड़े, कस्ट हुआ , लोग आये , वह भी आये जिसने कभी ध्यान नहीं दिया और आपके मन ने धारणा  बैठा ली "अगर मैं दुखी रहता हूँ तो सब मुझे पूछते हैं ". ओर फिर शुरू होती है ज़िन्दगी भर की लड़ाई।  अहंकार और दुखी मन की मिली भगत मैं आप कभी डूबते हो तो कभी उठते हो।  

यह पाप सिर्फ मेल की एक परत है।  इसको ज्ञान की गंगा मैं डुबकी लगा कर धो डालो।  फिर आप आपने असली स्वभाव मैं डुबकी लगाओगे।

जिसमें सिर्फ
आनंद है
शांति है

बेहतर यही होगा की आप जल्द से जल्द जीवन जीने की कला सीख लें और इस जीवन मैं मस्त हो जायें।

When you were born, you were in elements. Happy and carefree. As you grew you would fall sick and everyone around will come enquiring about your well being. Your mind then builds the identity/belief that "if i am sick then people ask for me, care for me". Thus, begins a journey of coping up and living with identity that was never yours. A joint venture of a sad mind and distorted ego takes you for a spin.

Thus the path to break away becomes rougher and harder. You always keep falling back to easy, to give up, to believe that sadness is your nature.

But did you know sadness/sin is only skin deep. Your taking a dip in the Ganges is synonymous for washing away of all sins because sin is like mud sling body. You wash the body in the purity of knowledge and the mud just slips away.

Did you know that beyond the skin you are pure.
Beyond the sin is real you.
The perfect.
The serene.
The peaceful.

So, don't go by the colour of your skin. It will fade away and wrinkle in time, before it does its better you learn the art of living. 

Monday, May 25, 2015

In search of shiv tatva - शिव तत्त्व की प्रतीक्षा मैं

Where is shiv ?
It is said that the entire universe is materialisation of one shiv sankalp (thought). But what happened to the creator after the world was created on his behest. Did he disappear? Did he hide? Is he dormant?

शिव कहाँ हैं? कैसे हैं ? कौन हैं?
कहते हैं यह सृस्टि एक शिव संकल्प का परिणाम है. लेकिन फिर वह कहाँ चले गए या फिर यहीं कहीं हैं, छुपे बैठे हैं।

It is said that

  1. it is in everything but its not everything. 
  2. it can be found only via Guru (an enlightened master). You dont have direct access to shiva principle.
  3. only grace can bring it forth to you, no effort or manipulation can influence its decision to reveal
  4. it can come in  a form which is dear to you
शिव तत्त्व के बारे मैं कुछ मान्यताएं हैं , जैसी की 
  1. सब उसमें है पर वह सब मैं नहीं हैं 
  2. वह सिर्फ गुरु की सानिध्य मैं मिलते हैं।  
  3. सिर्फ कृपा से जागृत होते हैं , अकारण , अकरम से 
  4. अक्सर तुम्हारे पूजनीय रूप मैं प्रकट भी हो सकते हैं 

So what do you do in the meantime?
Grace is indeterminate, beyond demand.
Its beyond time and reason and action. Its not a fruit of well defined actions or merits gathered via good deeds or any other logical culmination of effort. 

तब आप क्या करोगे तब तक.
कुछ कहतें हैं के संकल्प करो और अपने प्रिये जान को समर्पित कर दो।  फिर धैर्ये से प्रतीक्षा करो।

Infinite patience.
असीम धैर्य

You also cannot remain idle. You need to be either in love or in action or in both.
लेकिन चुप चाप बैठ भी नहीं सकते।  कुछ तो कर्म करना पड़ेंगे और कुछ भक्ति मैं नयन बंद करने होंगे.

Grace has some linkages to devotion to divine and also to good deeds for the betterment of society. Though, there is no clarity of the link.
कृपा का भक्ति और कर्म से कुछ सम्बन्ध है।  लेकिन कैसे या कैसा मुझे पता नहीं।

You cannot ask it to present itself because then it will be a limited expression of the form, limited by the laws of nature. Even light is limited expression of energy.
अगर आप उसे रूप मैं ढूढ़ते हैं तो वह सिमित है. हर रूप प्रकृति के नियमोें मैं बंधा हैं. अगर वह रौशनी हैं तो वह भी ऊर्जा का सिमित अभिव्यक्ति है.

It is said to be an experience. The experience happens by itself when self decides and finds it appropriate to express.
शिव एक अनुभव हैं. वह अपने आप, अपने संकल्प से प्रकट होते हैं।

What have you done so far in finding your God?

Do think its important to know who the primordial father/creator is/was? Or, can you happily ignore its presence and continue dragging around?
क्या आप उत्सुक नहीं होते हो उससे मिलने के लिए जिसने आपको बनाया है?
या फिर इस माया जाल के चक्रव्यू मैं मस्त हो।

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