Monday, July 25, 2016

Freeing the mind and egolessness - from Yoga Vasistha knowledge series

The subtle combo of mind+intellect+memory+ego runs in self-feeding cycle.

Ego brings forth the I-ness.
Ego nudges the memory to bring into focus an incident/situation in which it triumphs or suffers. Memory nudges the intellect to argue on the situation. Intellect creates the argument and prepares the mind to have the argument. The mind comes into existence with the thoughts germinated in the intellect. The thoughts hail or destruct the ego. And the journey of life begins. You are born.

Why are you born?
A little story.
Once Vishnu was in BrahmaLok and everyone came forth to welcome him except Sanath Kumar. When you get "don't care" in dispassion then its arrogance. Vishnu sensed this and cursed SanathKumar to spent one lifetime on Earth as punishment, as a journey to dissipate this arrogance/egoness. At that moment SanathKumar also cursed Vishnu to spent a lifetime on Earth while he was there and so Shree Ram was born.

So tell me why were you born? hmm..

Even Vishnu is sport enough to participate in this Game of life. So what makes you abhor it?

Heres one more story for your musings.
Once Demons Guru's Shukracharya mother (Rishi Bhrigu's wife) was protecting them and they could not be defeated so the Angels went and seeked Vishnu's help. Vishnu killed Brigu's wife and angels could defeat the Demons again. But Bhrigu grieved in the loss and cursed Vishnu that the pain that I am going through even you will go through on Earth. And thus Sita was separated from Shree Ram.

I-dent-ity == I --> DENT --> इति (the end)
Meditation is denting the I and bring it to an end. The entire life is given to fulfil this mission.
Even the above denting of ego definition was born in the morning Sadhana (Sahaj Samadhi meditation + Padma Sadhana + Sudarshan Kriya + Pranayamas + Surya Namaskars in reverse order).

Ego is about creating an identity. A definition based on certain like/dislike at that point in time. So you become that definition.

My definition at this point in time could be "I am very sensitive, don't like loud music, abhor non-veg, feel pity for people who smoke/drink liquor, life without Guru would be meaningless".

My definition of my ego at college days could be "I like blaring music into my headphones, a smoke here and there is fine, Nature is my Guru and I don't need any human intervention".

Ego likes shrinking, creating separation, building boundaries, limiting expression.

Egolessness is about destroying these likes/dislikes. Its about expansion, union, breaking barriers, unlimited expression.

Experiencing the infinite in this finite form is no mind (free mind).

There you need a little hand holding, because you are getting into a realm which is beyond. That is why you need a Guru, a master to take you across this river. A river sometimes serene and sometimes on fire. The source of this river like mind is ego.  The journey of the river is this life. The destination is one more attempt to merge with the ocean of consciousness. But if the waves of arrogance continue in the ocean then they evaporate and form clouds, hit the mountains and become source of river again. And the cycle continues.

Above article is inspired post listening to 8th episode of Commentary On Yoga Vashitha by Nakul Dhawan Ji from +The Art of Living session being given at +Art of Living International Center at Bangalore. The next session is on 9PM , wednesday, July 27. You can also register online to watch it along with 8 earlier sessions.

Sunday, July 24, 2016

Purpose of life - from Yoga Vasistha knowledge series

The purpose of life is to be liberated.

Your life is designed for liberation.

The life is a progression towards liberation.

Q> What is liberation from?
A> It is from your ego.

Q> Who is the guardian of ego?
A> The mind.

Q> Can you compare this progression of life to something?
A> Its like the river cleaning the impurity thrown into it and making it spotless, clean. It is the nature of the river to clean. After some travel the impurity becomes pure, loses its identity, loses its ego. You just merge.

Q> Need another example, not so clear?
A> Imagine a fire in the forest. Wood burning and smoke rising. The smoke can rise only to certain height, the smoke will travel certain distance. After some rise, some travel, it disappears into the space. It simply merges, loses its identity.

Our life is also like that. Its an opportunity for us to paint on an empty canvas. It's upto you to make this progression enjoyable or full of hassles. We may drag life or we can enjoy life. In either case it will end.
But before it ends what have you done to accelerate the decay of ego-self.  

There is only one board exam or 10th class exam. Once you clear it in life you do not give it again. You may go back to teach for 10th class but never to give the exam.

Once you attain liberation, the life force lifecycle is within you. The prana is within you. All the liberated beings are here, either in form or formless.

Above article is inspired post listening to 8th episode of Commentary On Yoga Vashitha by Nakul Dhawan Ji from +The Art of Living session being given at +Art of Living International Center at Bangalore. The next session is on 9PM , wednesday. You can also register online to watch it and 8 earlier sessions.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

The History of Anger


It has been a difficult emotion, expressed indifferently and at unexpected moments in life.

It has affected my parents, me, my spouse, my children, my colleagues and somebodies whom I have directly or indirectly interacted in past.
But it was a call to the SBI call center which brought the anger expression into perspective.

I had ignored my SBI current account for few months. I was out of freelancing since a while and there was not much action happening there.
But I happen to see the yearly statement by chance while making a bill payment. I noticed that on 2 occasions the bank had fines me for around INR 650.
Instantly sent them email. Not satisfied called them up. A lady agent received the call and explained that “rules say”
If you do not maintain a minimum balance of INR 10000 per quarter you will be charged around INR 650 per quarter.
I explained that I was not aware of the rule.
She said, she cannot even take a complaint as it was crystal clear rule which I should have been aware of.
This is the moment in the call when logic fails and you take alternate path of force to enforce your point. At this juncture some people choose to
  1. raise their voice and make their point
  2. verbally abuse
  3. etc.,
I too had reached that point of inflection. On any other day I would have used the loudness of voice and sharpness of logic to cut through the point, even though here I was on wrong side.

Last few days I had been building a case of “shouting culture” at work place and how it is destructive for healthy growth of any organizations. Some people believe that a certain degree of fear and angst drives people to become more productive.
My developing theory against shouting culture was that
  1. it emotionally breaks an individual
  2. it kills their enthusiasm
  3. the drive to contribute to the welfare and development of idea/product/service fades
  4. the confidence goes out of window
  5. the nerves can touch breakdown point
  6. etc.,

Now coming back to the bank complaint call. I was on the verge of displaying vocal violence. At that precise moment this knowledge came from somewhere.
Its okay if I shout but its not ok if others shout on me.
I was stunned. Every one in past had complained about my mis-managed expression of anger. Now in that moment this realization moderated my tone and I continued with the complaint in most gentlemanly manner.
I requested to talk to her superior and explained to poor manager that
Customers can also be dumb and stupid. They can forget rules and regulations that banks impose. Banks are also equally responsible for not informing the ignorant customer about a rule miss, before, during and after the rule has been missed. And not make this as their primary business model.
For the first time in all complaints in my life I had felt that this fine of INR 1300 had opened my eyes to a different expression of anger. The anger in which you make your point in a manner which it is as human as can be under the circumstance and still don’t feel the pinch of losing out.

How has mis-managed anger helped/disrupted your life?
Do you think there is a link between meditation and knowledge surfacing at the right moment?

Saturday, April 09, 2016

Happy new year 2073


A first time to banasankari amma’s temple at bangalore.

The morning of April 8, 2017 was spent with special participants of art of living happiness programme at RBI Layout center.

The evening was to be in art of living satsang led by dearest Swami Suryapada ji (otherwise known as Chayyana ji, with love).

Started walking to the temple. The first few Bangalore auto wallahs ignored. One well dressed and young one of them stopped and demanded INR 80, almost double. Another, shabbily dressed and middle aged simply switched on the meter.

Entered temple. Not knew which direction to take. Where to keep the footwear? Some feet were bare and going in, searched for ones not bare and followed them. Suddenly, the footwear stand appeared on the left end of the temple.

Saw the banner declaring satsang in kannada along with photos of Sri Sri and Chayyanna. The stage was getting set.

Suddenly saw one of the AOL happiness programme participant there. She said she came to meet Amma. I was confused. Her mother. Kept talking to gather more. She said she comes here every/most fridays to meet Amma. They lit lamp made of emptied half cut lemon and offer it to Amma.

Only then it struck.
Amma is mother divine, banasankari devi. It felt like GOD is part of our family.
Saw one BIGGER queue and another smaller. Quckly got into the smaller one and was face to face with Amma, riding on her tiger, with Ganesha and Shiva linga on both sides.

Chayyanna was also offering his prayer with the temple priests while I was gazing at the mother divine.

As I came out of main temple, I saw a car park. I had dared to come in auto and here I was meeting a car park inside a temple premise. A rare but pleasing sight. I kept walking to left and was led into the stage of satsang, sat in front, facing the satsangies and beside the loudspeaker.

Chayyana came in, sat in middle of stage. Another set of veena players mesmerised by their art and were honored before we got into satsang, which was heavenly.

Chayyana satsang transports you into another world. A world where music and the lyrics carries your weight.
Release you of your burden.
Make you light.
Make you electric.
Sooth your nerves.
bliss happens, effortlessly.

Chayyana translates some of the bhajans/keertans. One such story is here.
When the bhakta/devotee is lying and singing in praise of the lord, the divine sits beside him and listens.
When the devotee is sitting, the divine stands up, dances and listens.
When the devotee stands up, the divine simply merges with them.

Another poem, translated meant.
O Mother, let the jasmine flower fall from you (a sign that mother divine has listened and will fulfill my desires.)
What are my desires?
  1. let the young ones find suitable matches for marriage.
  2. let there be children in the home.
  3. let the home echo the sounds of anklets coming from little feets of my daughter.
  4. let anyone who comes, always find food and nourishment in my home.

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